Peace Be With You - What's Up Wednesday, May 14, 2025

Moving through this past week, my nerves have been tested more than ever. I've had several big changes take place in my family surrounding health, only to hit midweek and create my spiral of health problems. Today, I spent much of the day with a headache, questioning what I'm doing wrong with my body. Asking why I keep getting headaches, which spiraled and circled down the rabbit hole until I arrived at the point of view..." Is it really too much to ask to feel good with my body?"

Let me tell you where that question led. It led me directly into the wrongness of me, how I don't have a relationship with my body, I don't know what it wants, my communication sucks, clearly, I have bigger issues, etc... Judgement leading to judgment to create lies so I could judge some more. Did that make your head spin? It should've.

After some rest, my body did relax and release so that I could get back to my task list for the day, but it left me in a reflective mood because I'm someone who always strives not to experience "bad" things more than once, and here is where I arrived. I would love for someone else to tell me exactly what to do with my body.

In truth, no one can do this for you. The only person who can have true communion and connection to your body is you. You created it, you chose it. As the quote says, nothing can bring you peace but yourself. To look outside of ourselves for the answers leads us down a dangerous slope to be controlled, exploited, and even abused. Frankly, it opens the doors to gaslighting and creates enough doubt to allow us to give up, give in, and stop creating our own futures.

If you understood that you're the most powerful person in your Universe and that the decisions you make each moment are creating the next, you'll understand what Ralph Waldo Emerson is saying. You can have faith in higher powers. You can create a community. But in the end, it is the relationship you have with yourself that makes those external influences meaningful. After all, there would be no relationship if you weren't in it.